Suburban Paradise | The Bike Ride, the Abortion and the Swans

Existential restlessness and the pursuit of connection define this exploration of personal vulnerability during a period of global uncertainty. By examining the act of paying attention as a pathway to healing, the narrative shifts into an intimate, unvarnished diary entry detailing the complexities of a short-lived romantic relationship. The account highlights the friction between traditional domestic desires and individual autonomy, specifically through the lens of a bike ride that serves as a metaphor for power dynamics and future expectations. Beyond the personal relationship, the reflection touches on the struggle to maintain a creative work ethic when the world feels increasingly nonsensical. Ultimately, the dialogue serves as a raw, unfiltered confession, bridging the gap between private introspection and the public performance of art, while questioning the necessity of labor in a state of personal and societal disillusionment.