#223. This year was simultaneously the best and worst of my life, and I need to talk about it before we close out 2025. I got married and made a home, but I also fell apart—moved twice, worked through emotional exhaustion, developed a bitterness I didn't recognize, and met parts of myself I didn't want to meet. If you're ending this year feeling overwhelmed from the weight of it all, like you can't wrap it up neatly before January 1st, this one's for you.

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The Year That Unmade Me (Reckoning Before the Reset)

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